I feel like it's time for a bit of a rant.
...Here I am again, making myself feel guilty for something that is only supposed to be a hobby.
I don’t want to be a Debbie Downer but I have such an obsessive personality. I either dislike something or i LOVE it. I can’t just LIKE something.
So I feel like this winds its way into things that I like to do in my spare time.
I wanted to start a Youtube channel so I did, and I love it, but I just don’t have time at the minute nor do I have the imagination I did when I first started so I haven’t posted in a while. Here we have it… I feel guilty. Even though I only have a small number of subscribers, I feel guilty, like I am a failure for not posting regular content.
I decided that blogging was what I wanted to do as my hobby. My love is writing. I want people to read what I write and I want them to love it. I want them to feel like they know me and they can speak to me as a friend just through reading what I write.
So I took the plunge and I began blogging. And this is it… I know this is what I want to do. When I open up the Notepad on my computer and I start typing… it just flows. It may seem rambley and ranty but this is how I want it to be.
But then again… I haven’t posted in 3 weeks. I have had a mind blank and I have had a busy few weeks. I am a failure… at least, that’s how it feels.
I don’t want to feel like that. I want this to be something I love to do and not something that I feel like I HAVE to do.
I would hate it if the people that read my posts felt like they were boring or forced or even fake. I don’t want that at all.
I’m not sure if it’s just my personality or if this is a regular occurrence within the blogging community. I don’t know where I’m going with this, I guess I just want to know if I’m alone feeling this way?
Here we have it, I’m putting it in writing. I love this blog and I will never force this blog.
I hope this hasn’t been too rambly or too down for you to read, but if you did read to this far then
Thank You
:)
