I feel like it's time for a bit of a rant.
...Here I am again, making myself feel guilty for something that is only supposed to be a hobby.
I don’t want to be a Debbie Downer but I have such an obsessive personality. I either dislike something or i LOVE it. I can’t just LIKE something.
So I feel like this winds its way into things that I like to do in my spare time.
I wanted to start a Youtube channel so I did, and I love it, but I just don’t have time at the minute nor do I have the imagination I did when I first started so I haven’t posted in a while. Here we have it… I feel guilty. Even though I only have a small number of subscribers, I feel guilty, like I am a failure for not posting regular content.
I decided that blogging was what I wanted to do as my hobby. My love is writing. I want people to read what I write and I want them to love it. I want them to feel like they know me and they can speak to me as a friend just through reading what I write.
So I took the plunge and I began blogging. And this is it… I know this is what I want to do. When I open up the Notepad on my computer and I start typing… it just flows. It may seem rambley and ranty but this is how I want it to be.
But then again… I haven’t posted in 3 weeks. I have had a mind blank and I have had a busy few weeks. I am a failure… at least, that’s how it feels.
I don’t want to feel like that. I want this to be something I love to do and not something that I feel like I HAVE to do.
I would hate it if the people that read my posts felt like they were boring or forced or even fake. I don’t want that at all.
I’m not sure if it’s just my personality or if this is a regular occurrence within the blogging community. I don’t know where I’m going with this, I guess I just want to know if I’m alone feeling this way?
Here we have it, I’m putting it in writing. I love this blog and I will never force this blog.
I hope this hasn’t been too rambly or too down for you to read, but if you did read to this far then
Thank You
:)
We all need a rant from time to time, haha! I know how you feel, I've often felt bad for not posting, but you're right you shouldn't force it, just enjoy what you're doing!! xx
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Thank you for even taking the time to read this :) it means a lot!
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I feel like that all the time too so I completely get it...honestly I had a sort off blog break over this past year and especially last year and then I just came back and had so many ideas, sometimes it's actually better to just sit back and not feel like your being made to do something but to do it because you enjoy it, that was the whole point in me starting out my blog for me it was a hobby and if people read it then good but if they didn't then it wouldn't have bothered me that much.
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